'so much harder to see in the dark
with each steps brings uncertainty
not more of the noise or the movements
or the fact that we cannot see
but more of the unknown that we fear'
like most people, i am very much afraid..afraid what i don't know, the future..GIRLS!
if only there was a way if we could see past the situations we go through or the outcome of our decisions but in reality we are all just in transition...going through choices, living our lives based on our inner ability or our moral compass to direct our future in any way we choose to
i am learning and feeling like most of us are really on this life journey of knowing and not knowing...we make choices based on the facts and experiences...lessons learned and peoples opinions...i have come to realize that life is really a reflection of who we are and also what is most important to us...and unless we get our priorities straight and not worry so much about others negativity, then we can trully nd fully live.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
REMIND ME AGAIN WHY I'M HERE!
JAMES 1:22-25(AMPLIFIED)
22But be doers of the Word [obey the message], and not merely listeners to it, betraying yourselves [into deception by reasoning contrary to the Truth].
23For if anyone only listens to the Word without obeying it and being a doer of it, he is like a man who looks carefully at his [own] natural face in a mirror;
24For he thoughtfully observes himself, and then goes off and promptly forgets what he was like.
25But he who looks carefully into the faultless law, the [law] of liberty, and is faithful to it and perseveres in looking into it, being not a heedless listener who forgets but an active doer [who obeys], he shall be blessed in his doing (his life of obedience).
i walk by glass and mirrors all day. on my way to work and going home, i see myself at every corner as i slowly make my way through the crowds or tread heavily throught the snow, i see me. its not like i forget how i look or what i have on but for some reason i always find myself looking at myself, like i forgot who i am. maybe its just my vanity or my lack of a better idea to fill my daily stroll that instead of keeping my eyes on the path i walk on, i'd rather consume myself with mindless observation of what i have on. maybe this could be a good thing for me, to sort of constantly remind myself who i am. like mirrors, the bible is like a good reminder of who we are and who we serve...remind us of why we are here and why we are freed and saved...its always good to be reminded especially these days, it very easy to lose ourselves or to forget who we are...whether its busy doing other things or just generally living life...its not that i get distracted but it's very easy for me to lose focus...work takes up a lot of my time, as i was having a conversation with a friend is that work can be good but can also be a distraction, making us lose focus on the things that we were meant to be or become...i'm not saying work is not good but i find myself asking questions whether is this for me or is there something out there that i need busy myself with...hmmm just a thought i guess
22But be doers of the Word [obey the message], and not merely listeners to it, betraying yourselves [into deception by reasoning contrary to the Truth].
23For if anyone only listens to the Word without obeying it and being a doer of it, he is like a man who looks carefully at his [own] natural face in a mirror;
24For he thoughtfully observes himself, and then goes off and promptly forgets what he was like.
25But he who looks carefully into the faultless law, the [law] of liberty, and is faithful to it and perseveres in looking into it, being not a heedless listener who forgets but an active doer [who obeys], he shall be blessed in his doing (his life of obedience).
i walk by glass and mirrors all day. on my way to work and going home, i see myself at every corner as i slowly make my way through the crowds or tread heavily throught the snow, i see me. its not like i forget how i look or what i have on but for some reason i always find myself looking at myself, like i forgot who i am. maybe its just my vanity or my lack of a better idea to fill my daily stroll that instead of keeping my eyes on the path i walk on, i'd rather consume myself with mindless observation of what i have on. maybe this could be a good thing for me, to sort of constantly remind myself who i am. like mirrors, the bible is like a good reminder of who we are and who we serve...remind us of why we are here and why we are freed and saved...its always good to be reminded especially these days, it very easy to lose ourselves or to forget who we are...whether its busy doing other things or just generally living life...its not that i get distracted but it's very easy for me to lose focus...work takes up a lot of my time, as i was having a conversation with a friend is that work can be good but can also be a distraction, making us lose focus on the things that we were meant to be or become...i'm not saying work is not good but i find myself asking questions whether is this for me or is there something out there that i need busy myself with...hmmm just a thought i guess
Friday, January 16, 2009
mirror
million times i look and see
how dollars can make beauty out of ugly
covering the deep
plastering the blemish on our skin
a thousand eyes can see what you become
but deep inside the pain still runs
how dollars can make beauty out of ugly
covering the deep
plastering the blemish on our skin
a thousand eyes can see what you become
but deep inside the pain still runs
the flow part 1
when will we realize
that words we say could never divide
add or multiply unless
our hands have made the words into life
our thoughts can't save one from hell
or the screaming of our hearts can't save one's pain
let good transcend us into a plane
where we will see others and never be the same
that words we say could never divide
add or multiply unless
our hands have made the words into life
our thoughts can't save one from hell
or the screaming of our hearts can't save one's pain
let good transcend us into a plane
where we will see others and never be the same
Monday, December 22, 2008
weight of things x what if's
growth.growing.moving forward.advancing.decisions decisions.crossroads.choices.intersections.progress.success.downfalls.hitting walls...life is full of these things mentioned...we are either forced into it due to circumstances or to consciously choose to propel ourselves into moments of great success or failures...we will never know the outcome..whether it will work for our benefit or be our biggest breakdown...the unknown scares a lot of us..its normal to be afraid of it because we feel less safe in the dark, not knowing what lurks around the corner frightens even the strongest...but i guess that's life, we go through it half of the time blind, never knowing anything and that's the beauty of it i guess...a lot of us risk less because we don't know but then again we will never know unless we try, right?!?
the same is true with us, our walk as believers...it says the `just' shall live by faith..and faith, simply defined is believing in something that we don't have YET or even something we cannot see YET...hmm sounds like false hope to me...how i ask? just reading that sort of makes feel a bit vulnerable, weak or even naked...we are all about about making opportunities, go-getter...we make something for ourselves..we want money, we work..we want success, we work..we work for things that can quickly disappear...no i'm bashing on the fact that hard work isn't bad...work is necessary because faith without work is dead...but at the same our success or failure does not define who we are but we are defined by the one who made us to be...so what if all the work we put in gives us zero return? what if everything that we have built starts to crumble? what if it doesn't work out in the end, then what? God asks us to seek first His kingdom and righteousness(Matthew 6:33-34) because only He knows what could bring true satisfaction...so yes its okay to pursue our goals and dreams but we shouldn't be anchored only on those things for they can quickly shift or change just as the seasons...there is no doubt that God wants the best for us but sometimes what we think is the best for us is usually completely opposite of what He wants to do for us...a friend told me once that instead of putting God first, put Him in the center of everything, whether it be career, family, school etc. so that in everything He will direct the course of our actions...the stress of deciding what to do in a situation such as school or career or marriage can be a person's making or breaking point...choosing the `right one' or `the best' is crucial but this can also include hours of over analyzing and can cause a sane person to lose his/her head over it...that is why majority of the population reverts back to being complacent and indecisive individuals fearing that they are incapable of ever making the right decision, i know because i am one the majority...seems like all my life has been cycles long sleepless nights where my brain is racing, over analyzing situations and that dreaded `choice' starts to make me cringe to my bones...fear can paralyze us..it limits our ability to be great...i saw this commercial saying `the only limits preventing us are the ones we set on ourselves' which in application is very true because half of the time we are all too worried about the situation rather than focusing on the one who gave us the dream.
i want to live life filled with adventure whether good or bad...regardless of the outcome of any decision that i make...i guess the important thing is that for myself to be just open to the fact that anything can happen...so instead of me thinking and over analyzing situations, i should just learn to sort my priorities and go through it with all that i am...learn to take risks, to live life worth living instead being motionless and indecisive...i need help, we all need help...we need people that will encourage and direct us and at the same support us no matter what...God wants us us to have a life that is FULL, not lacking, not boring, not so and so, not mediocre but life to the FULLEST..learn to surround yourself with people who will encourage and help you get there and be ready to learn...learn to grow up and accept things..i know i have a lot to learn and that i want to be a person who's willing risk it all without reservation, i want to be the person who's less on words but more in action...simplify my choice and just move, do something and grow.
that is all.
the same is true with us, our walk as believers...it says the `just' shall live by faith..and faith, simply defined is believing in something that we don't have YET or even something we cannot see YET...hmm sounds like false hope to me...how i ask? just reading that sort of makes feel a bit vulnerable, weak or even naked...we are all about about making opportunities, go-getter...we make something for ourselves..we want money, we work..we want success, we work..we work for things that can quickly disappear...no i'm bashing on the fact that hard work isn't bad...work is necessary because faith without work is dead...but at the same our success or failure does not define who we are but we are defined by the one who made us to be...so what if all the work we put in gives us zero return? what if everything that we have built starts to crumble? what if it doesn't work out in the end, then what? God asks us to seek first His kingdom and righteousness(Matthew 6:33-34) because only He knows what could bring true satisfaction...so yes its okay to pursue our goals and dreams but we shouldn't be anchored only on those things for they can quickly shift or change just as the seasons...there is no doubt that God wants the best for us but sometimes what we think is the best for us is usually completely opposite of what He wants to do for us...a friend told me once that instead of putting God first, put Him in the center of everything, whether it be career, family, school etc. so that in everything He will direct the course of our actions...the stress of deciding what to do in a situation such as school or career or marriage can be a person's making or breaking point...choosing the `right one' or `the best' is crucial but this can also include hours of over analyzing and can cause a sane person to lose his/her head over it...that is why majority of the population reverts back to being complacent and indecisive individuals fearing that they are incapable of ever making the right decision, i know because i am one the majority...seems like all my life has been cycles long sleepless nights where my brain is racing, over analyzing situations and that dreaded `choice' starts to make me cringe to my bones...fear can paralyze us..it limits our ability to be great...i saw this commercial saying `the only limits preventing us are the ones we set on ourselves' which in application is very true because half of the time we are all too worried about the situation rather than focusing on the one who gave us the dream.
i want to live life filled with adventure whether good or bad...regardless of the outcome of any decision that i make...i guess the important thing is that for myself to be just open to the fact that anything can happen...so instead of me thinking and over analyzing situations, i should just learn to sort my priorities and go through it with all that i am...learn to take risks, to live life worth living instead being motionless and indecisive...i need help, we all need help...we need people that will encourage and direct us and at the same support us no matter what...God wants us us to have a life that is FULL, not lacking, not boring, not so and so, not mediocre but life to the FULLEST..learn to surround yourself with people who will encourage and help you get there and be ready to learn...learn to grow up and accept things..i know i have a lot to learn and that i want to be a person who's willing risk it all without reservation, i want to be the person who's less on words but more in action...simplify my choice and just move, do something and grow.
that is all.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
LIFE...in general.
so many things are up in the clouds right now, especially with the holiday season in full swing, its hard to sort of plan anything else regarding what i want to with my life. basically they are just plans, nothing more. you see I'm a opportunity guy, i just take whatever opens up. this can a good thing but also can be my downfall. i think i should be more assertive in my life in general instead of waiting for `things' to open up or even happen. it boils down to what i really want in life or what i want to accomplish. life is boring if we choose to be stagnant or `comfy'. i know this will sound cliche but life is really an adventure full surprises, good and bad. one of my general rule in this life is this: take the good stuff but don't get too comfortable because it can get better. also regarding the `bad' is that we learn to accept it and also learn from it. i know it sound so simple but i think that's key in life, keeping things simple instead of being tangled with complexities of it. this will probably sound selfish but i want a build a life for myself. i feel like all these years i've tried to sort of unknowingly base my decision on somebody else's success or opinion. the danger of it was that i never found myself in the process of knowing who i really am and what i want for myself. we all have our lives to live, as a single guy trying to make it out in this fast paced world, i need to have goals, a plan something that will propel me closer to being the person i want and it all boils down to my priorities. i guess in my season it's easier now because i am single and have no kids, but i guess it will come to a point when i do need to not just think about what `i want' but `what's best'. so with that in my mind, i gotta get crackin', here are just some of those `plans' that's up in the air:
1. going back to school (choices: architecture, engineering or industrial design)
i was really eyeing of going to school in BC but we'll see, don't want to get my hopes up but it would be nice.
2. move somewhere in canada, hopefully BC. kinda getting tire of all this snow in toronto. probably look for a job and be all independent you know..hahah
3. find someone who i can share my dreams with and be with me 100% of the way...hmmm must be nice to have this. praying and finding mode
4. mission trips and such, basically be more socially active regarding the things that is happening around the world
everything else is just secondary and still must be thoroughly thought out. but that's the chunk of it..i'm terrified just reading it over but i will fully rely on His wisdom and to remain faithful until that time comes, whenever that is. so yeah i guess i can end with this quote by John Wesley:
1. going back to school (choices: architecture, engineering or industrial design)
i was really eyeing of going to school in BC but we'll see, don't want to get my hopes up but it would be nice.
2. move somewhere in canada, hopefully BC. kinda getting tire of all this snow in toronto. probably look for a job and be all independent you know..hahah
3. find someone who i can share my dreams with and be with me 100% of the way...hmmm must be nice to have this. praying and finding mode
4. mission trips and such, basically be more socially active regarding the things that is happening around the world
everything else is just secondary and still must be thoroughly thought out. but that's the chunk of it..i'm terrified just reading it over but i will fully rely on His wisdom and to remain faithful until that time comes, whenever that is. so yeah i guess i can end with this quote by John Wesley:
“When I was young I was sure of everything; in a few years, having been mistaken a thousand times, I was not half so sure of most things as I was before; at present, I am hardly sure of anything but what God has revealed to me”
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