LATELY I'VE BEEN...

having a sense unrest...like my mind is in constant `thinking' mode..i guess its because lately I've been having these feelings for a particular someone..its been a while since I've felt like this..and i guess its just too much for my pea brain to process...constant mix of emotions..a roller coaster of `feelings' that at times catches me off guard..and i guess the more i let myself be overtaken by these `feelings', the more i feel anxious and at times foolish...but one thing is for sure..i care for her..maybe more than i should..sometimes i just wanna wrap my arms around her and say everything will be alright...hmm i cant explain it..

I WAS WATCHING A MOVIE LAST SUNDAY AND I WAS REMINDED OF THIS POEM....SO CLOSE THAT I CAN FEEL...soo good

Sonnet XVII by Pablo Neruda
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.