$14,000 Paintball Tank!!!lol

This is the Funtrak Mini Paintball Tank, a scaled down version of the classic war machine. I’m not sure if it should be considered cool or instead, the ultimate nerd machine.
TALK ABOUT GETTING OWNED IN PAINTBALL WAR!LOL I WANT THIS GUY ON MY TEAM

Scenarios in my head...

If only you were to read this...

"Hi..i know i should have been more honest of what i really feel about you but unfortunately i wasn't strong enough admit that i really do care for you..its scary i know on my part to care for someone who i barely know but i thought i'd give it a try and hope that it'll work out...sorry for putting you through this, its stupid of me i know but i hope this will not affect the relationship we have, even if we're only going to be friends...just to let you know that you are truly one of the best...your honesty and genuine caring attitude has affected in ways you could not imagined, it caused me to take risks that i thought i would never have the guts to do...regardless of my past experience, you have made me a believer again that there are still awesome, God-fearing ladies out there..the ones that deserve only the best..yeah i hope u get me...i dont want to be the one holding you back from the one you want to be with...and i dont want to be the reason for you to question the relationship you're trying to build with this guy, cus he seems like a nice dude who definitely cares for you and most of all i just want you to be happy...even if im not the one in the picture...you'll always have a place in my heart and i am always here for you if ever you need a friend.."

this is me..honestly plain ol' me

Boy oh boy...

hmmm timing, wow i guess i had my chance and once again i think i might have screwed it up again...when God, when?? when is it my turn? all these question rushing and boggling my mind once again...maybe this is it for me..glimpse is all i will ever get..smell but never really tasting...i dont know anymore..im just so darn messed up and sooo down at this moment that i cant help but to think about the words i could have said or the thing i should have done...i feel dumb right now and just plain low...hmm it would have been nice but i guess we were never on the same page...ahhhhhh man...i am soooo stooopid but i guess its time to grow up again...move forward without the awkwardness of it all..but i should never, ever, never ever give up on love...regardless of the past or the pain of it all..good or bad..happy or sad...God only knows...help me know because i'm a bit lost and i think i just need someone to light my way again so i can find the way to get there...just a little bit more i guess...just keep it positive i guess...know that everything is not as bad as it seems...there are worst things in this world other than letting go of someone you deeply care about...i guess theres always the next one..maybe this time i'll be man enough to say what i really feel, instead of being caught up what others will say or the situations we put ourselves in...listen to what your heart is telling you..heart is resilient and good..underneath the brokeness and pain..theres is hope and there is a God that take the broken and make it whole...yeah it hurts just a little but i guess ill be okay...no one really knows it better than You...so i guess just put this one at Your feet and hope for the better...yeah hope for the better.

Tycoon Commissions $6.5 Million Vacheron Constantin

A European mogul has commissioned luxury Swiss watchmaker Vacheron Constantin to create a one-of-a-kind $6.5 million timepiece which will automatically become one of the most expensive watches in the world. The horological feat incorporating several astronomical and astrological complications could take years to complete. The finished product will surpass Vacheron’s most expensive and complicated watch to date, the limited edition double-faced Tour de l’Ile (above) created for the company’s 250th anniversary in 2005. Only seven pieces were produced at $1.5 million each.

The complications are expected to include a perpetual calendar and leap year, star chart, celestial annual calendar, tourbillon regulator, sunrise and sunset indication, perpetual time equation, phases and age of the moon, substantial power reserve, multiple time zones and day-night indication, among others. The anonymous collector who commissioned the $6.5 million watch is following in the footsteps of New York banker Henry Graves, Jr., who commissioned Patek-Philippe to create the world’s most complicated pocket watch in 1932. Dubbed the Supercomplication, the yellow gold timepiece sold at Sotheby’s in 1999 for a record-breaking $11 million and remains something of a holy grail for watch collectors.

You

Oh the romance we have.
Kisses sweeter than drops of honey
Sleeping till our dreams run out
Looking into each others eye's so deeply
Letting go of all tomorrows worries

Oh how could perfection come in a moment
Lasting only second yet feeling like an eternity
Like warm summer breeze
Or the light breaking the clouds

Feeling like I'm falling
And floating all the same time
Never looking back because all I want is you
Now and for the rest of our lives

Crutch.

Lately I've been learning to treasure relationships..whether it be friends or family...I know I haven't been the best at this but i thought that by keeping myself busy enough, then maybe it'll work for my advantage..maybe by having `stuff' to do, i can have a more full life..by being busy enough that my days and nights won't be unproductive or even boring..but boy was i wrong...I've come to realize that its my crutch...i've used my hectic schedule as a medium for my inability to not be with people...i missed a lot..memorable times because i was off doing `work'...selfish i know and the more i think about it, the more i realized that i should have never used ministry or even God as an excuse to be with people especially when they need me the most...isn't that the whole point of Jesus ministry here on earth...He meets the needs of the people..He met them personally without self-righteousness or even hesitation...so i guess the point of this is all about growing and moving forward...first realization then comes change...I hope that i will have wisdom and most of all love to see the more important things in life..ie, people...

taking it one day at a time.

i fell like everything in my life right is now is in chaos...it could be better but it isn't...i am unhappy...always in a state of unrest..terrified of a lot responsibilities that is put on my shoulders...unsatisfied with my relationships with people...oohhh how i wish i could be here and say everything is fine, but i can't because it isn't...i need a new perspective...a goal..a reason to keep going...i need prayers..in desperate need of courage and strength...i need..i need..I NEED YOU...more than ever i need You...i was reminded that regardless of how life may turn out..or how present situations just seems to affect our state of being in a way that all we want to do is give up..there is Grace...peace that surpasses all understanding...that dawn will break through the night...anything can change in an instant, regardless of our best wishes or intentions...people will come and go...seasons will surely change...everything our hands have made will fade in time...but i was reminded that He will not...regardless of what i feel or what my attitudes towards certain issued in my life...He is the same from the beginning till the end...soo all i can do trust..with all my heart i need to trust...because when everything i've held onto starts to crumble..He will not.

ps. the choice to be better starts today.