Crutch.

Lately I've been learning to treasure relationships..whether it be friends or family...I know I haven't been the best at this but i thought that by keeping myself busy enough, then maybe it'll work for my advantage..maybe by having `stuff' to do, i can have a more full life..by being busy enough that my days and nights won't be unproductive or even boring..but boy was i wrong...I've come to realize that its my crutch...i've used my hectic schedule as a medium for my inability to not be with people...i missed a lot..memorable times because i was off doing `work'...selfish i know and the more i think about it, the more i realized that i should have never used ministry or even God as an excuse to be with people especially when they need me the most...isn't that the whole point of Jesus ministry here on earth...He meets the needs of the people..He met them personally without self-righteousness or even hesitation...so i guess the point of this is all about growing and moving forward...first realization then comes change...I hope that i will have wisdom and most of all love to see the more important things in life..ie, people...