Gentleman Don't..

I'm trying to be a grown-up just trying to deal with this issue right now..its just a bit of a stretch and so confusing sometimes...what i don't get is that how women are so darn confusing or maybe they're playing a game without them knowing it...its boggling my mind..hmm maybe I'm just trying to save my sanity here trying to figure things out and maybe become the better man regardless how this situation turns up but i didn't realize how hard it is letting you go...maybe if you were such a "meanie" maybe it'll be easier but your just so "nice"...and the random morning texts is not helping.."i need to find another you" because its obvious that regardless how much i tried to be the better man, these other dudes still has the advantage on me regardless of how much crap that you put up with these "boys"...hmm you tell me that you're the kinda of person who is straightforward and honest and that i wouldn't be able to handle you but I'm thinking otherwise...i don't know if the talks were just made up to make me believe something that isn't there but it seems like regardless of how these dudes treat you, you still put up with it..i don't get it...i guess women just has a hard time knowing who they want..its hard on us guys because our brain goes a million miles a minute trying to break down scenarios and basically trying to do what is best for you..we'll that's me anyways..because in my opinion, women deserve only the best..haha sappy!!...well all i want is for you to be happy..truly and honestly..because its obvious that i care for you too much that sometimes i just don't know what to do but pray for you...maybe the timing is just wrong or maybe it was never meant to be but lets try to be mature in this..I'm not going to force it and i will remain optimistic for the future.

PS.
current readings: Boundaries in Dating..hahah i know i need help, big time! hopefully it helps.